Gratitude

Saturday Morning: I woke up at 6am today to go pre-round at the hospital and get patients ready for discharge in an attempt to impress my Attending. The first comment he makes on my hours of work? "You wrote the prescription for Percocet incorrectly."

It's now 11:30am and I'm still in the hospital. On the 10th floor in my secret study room. Starting once again to feel frustration creeping back in, I take a break to glance outside the window and see this:






I laugh, thinking how many little signs from the Universe I must have missed for the wise ones above to finally hit me over the head with a message I can't ignore.

Currently feeling grateful for ubiquitous love, as amorphous and undirected as it may be. Look around you:

What signs from the Universe are you not seeing? What are you happy for today?

Sea Dreamer

"When you sail to find me
Let the wind remind thee
Of a shipwrecked sailor that was saved by a maiden
And sent out to sea
That's where I'll be
A million, million miles away
Sea dreamer 'til my dying day..."

Advice

Best piece of advice - As narrated by my attending this morning:

It is far better to be alone and happy than with someone and miserable

Take time to enjoy the pleasures of being selfish when you can.
And when you start to feel the urge to be domesticated:
1). Bake some vegan muffins - for the office
2). Cuddle a baby - your Attending's
3). Go out to a fancy dinner - with Drug Reps
4). Chat on the phone with someone inspirational - your mother, girlfriends, pretty boys you call friends.
5). Look at it not as nights alone, but rather as evenings you can spend enjoying the sunset in peaceful silence.

These moments like all the rest are fleeting. Embrace them when you can but also, don't be afraid of letting go...

Mothers

"I still hear you humming, Mama. The color of your song calls me home. The color of your words saying, "Let her be. She got a right to be different. She gonna stumble on herself one of these days. Just let the child be." And I be, Mama." - Sonia Sanchez

God could not be everywhere and therefore He made mothers

No one will ever love you as much or know you as well as your mom. Love her, cherish her and above all else, listen to HER. I love you mommy for always knowing best how to get me out of a dark place and back into the light.