Life's a Marathon, not a Sprint

Do you ever feel the waves of energy pulsating inside you? Turbulent and angry, crashing against the walls of your being, begging for a way out? After spending so much time amongst and talking to loved ones this weekend I began to see just how vital it is to be around those who really care about you in order to keep the energy channels that flow through us all properly aligned. Think of the frustration you feel when you deeply care about someone but that love is unrequited...that panicked feeling that swirls around within you could be assuaged if you could just find the right person to align your energy with. It blows my mind to think of all the misdirected love that's flying around in the universe.

Birthdays always yield gifts that feed the appetites, but along with the materialistic also comes a catering towards the emotions. Those who love you best know how to deliver the presents that will mean the most. To me, it's always been a matter of acknowledgement. We get caught up worrying about our own lives so much that we sometimes forget who else may be thinking of us as well...This year's most meaningful acknowledgement of existence came from The First Love. Though between us lays thousands of miles, a smattering of other romantic casualities on both sides and eons void of communication it always amazes me at how the energy still burns, ever so dimly. It stands to reason that my Replacement Theory (i.e., belief that you will never get over your first love until you are with someone else who is capable of loving you the same -or hopefully more than- the first) hasn't been consummated yet, I still find it intriguing that there is still that underlying energy coursing through me. Though I realize it may not be directed at any more than a mere shadow of a memory of The First Love, it's there; bouncing around through my skin and bones because it's searching for a new destination. If nothing else in the last 24 years of my life, I've learned the importance of conserving that energy. It's inevitable that over time some of it will leak out and decay but I think if you can focus on keeping other important people like friends and family in the equation to recharge yourself with, then it immensely prolongs your energy's half-life.

The First Love used to always tell me that "Life is a marathon, not a sprint" and ironically enough, I'm thinking that the best way to dissipate some of the restlessness I feel inside is to start training for a marathon that's taking place in the Happiest Place on Earth.


Though I'm still brimming with birthday love, I'm currently trying to find a good cap to make sure it doesn't evaporate out any time soon because who knows how long the next drought will last.....


Be cognizant of to whom you're throwing your energy at. Waste yours in one direction and you may not get it back in return when you're in need of it.